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Blog Comments posted by lilgallowsmama
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Trust Issues
in Bwitchy's Blog
A blog by bwitchy in General
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Yep, yep, double yep.
Even worse than not trusting people - I don't trust happiness, of all things. When things start going great, or are going great, I either hold my breath, keep watch over my shoulder, or simply bail out. Most of the time I just bail out. Throughout my entire life, anything happy has always ended in heartbreak or extreme hurt and disappointment. So, when I'm happy now I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I have a very 'I'm going to get the hell out of here before you shatter what's left of me into pieces' approach to trusting people and situations...and I've only recently began to understand it.
On top of that, I have HR. Even the couple of things I've been willing to chance my heart with, I've refused to chance hers and walked away anyway. I'm scared of her going through what I went through as a child, so even when I'm not scared or distrusting with the outcome of my own heart, I still bail.