My name is Lisa and I lost my son, Joshua Brown, on January 11, 2007. It happened very suddenly and unexpectedly. This has been the roughest year of my life and this time of year is absolutely killing me. The grief and pain have been almost unbearable. If not for the grace of God and my family and friends, there's no telling where I would be. It doesn't seem fair that any parent should have to live through their children passing before them; but I believe God has a plan for everyone. I just haven't found the reason for the loss of my precious son. I can relate to any parent who has lost