#1--Not always easy
#2--He is worth it
#3--He is still 90% a better person, than before
#4--I made a commitment
#5--YOU may be in the same shoes, and I will let you know your not alone..
Jeremy has been addicted to Meth for about 6 years.
It took me 3 years to admit to "myself" that "he" had a problem.
I tryed to "fix" him. I tried to find him for years and just bring him home.. NOT A GOOD IDEA!!!
When using Meth, that's NOT the person you know...
Keep your distance. but keep intouch.
It's not YOUR fault
You are not the mean, nasty,lying, worthless person THEY say you are.
I bet your not even cheating on them...but oh do they say you are.
I bet there are not police sitting in your trees watching you sleep (he's past that,thank God!)
A few things they may say to you..
--What time did you get to work?
--Where'd you go for lunch?
--Who'd you go with?
--Who's office are you calling me from?
--Why are you talking to me like that in front of those people?
--What time did you get off work today?
--Where'd you go after work, it sure took you a long time to get home?
--How can you Love me and treat me this way?
--You sure have a lot of energy today. ( even when you have not lifted a finger and watched TV all day) whoo that right there is a sure sign...........
Sunday I put my hand on his belly when going to sleep. It felt really soft and squishy, I made a comment, but that was as far as it went.
Monday: He said he would eat dinner, but he didn't.
Tuesday:He missed work, said he had the stomach virus, Possible so I didn't say anything.
He was goning to watch American idol with us, He did every thing he could to keep his distance from me.
Wed: He missed work again.... would not answer the phine or cell all day. He left the house around noon, I finaaly got him to answer at 4:20
He acted like he was SOOOOO happy to tak to me and just could not figure out why I was upset with him...
So when I got home home I gave him every oportunity to come clean, he just couldn't do it. He accused me of EVERYTHING he had been doing. So there I know what he was doing..
I'm am MUCH smarter about this stuff that I was years ago.
So I told him he had to leave, he didn't want to be he jabberd till my brother took him away...
Woke up Thursday moring to him taking to me through our bedroom window. Begging me to talk to him and telling me how much he loves me....
my comment ot him.. "hmmm, really"
I then left for work and I took him with me to get him away from the house. I never let him come in.
I was gonna drop him off at the DC sheriffs dept. by surprise. But he wanted to go to Lee rd.So if I went a way that was not toward Lee rd, he cried like a baby, saying "where you taking me?" That got on my nerves so bad... So I turned around stopped at the gas station by Greystone in DVille. Wishing for a sheriff officer to be near.. Not because I was scared of him hurting my,but because he was SOO mad at himself, and I wanted him to know I AM NOT PLAYING AROUND>>>>
Well no luck on the officer and he would NOT get out. So I go on down Midway toward Fairburn rd.
Stop at another gas station where there was plenty of people.
Got out Got my purse and phone. I called to Sheriffs dept. He heasr and took off running.
Sad but true and very funny.
I am so numb to this that I couldn't help but laugh.
The people pumping gas looked at him like "What in the world"
I went in the store and got me a drink. The people inside said " did you see that man running"... I said "Yeah That is what happens when you use meth"
So the officers show up, and they know him So they start looking for him. I said he didn't hurt me but he may hurt himself.
The officers know what a good person he is and it stinks this happens to good people but it DOES!!
He called me all day yesterday spilling out his love for me and how sorry he was. That still doen't buy him a ticket home.... So about 4:30 yesterday he called after a nap scared to death.. He said he thought he was gonna die and needed to go to the ER.
I do not want him to die...
BUT... I have kids at home and That's where I was going!
I called my brother and told him what Jeremy was feeling.. He said if he was gonna die from it he would already have died, So he told me to take care of the kids and he would take him to the ER if he really wanted to go...
I never heard back from him after that, but my brother took him to get food.
The ER thing was one of his straws for me to come get him...
In the past years I would have been to his rescue with out a 2nd thought....
But this is where keeping your distance comes in to play.
I do not have all the answers, but I'm learning. I knew this was not gonna be easy.
I accepted that
I must say it has been and is. alot better than I have expected.
Pray for us and if your in the same position...........Good Luck....Stay Strong.
Edited by JulieRhea, 26 May 2006 - 12:23 PM.